IM NOT LETTING GO!
Part 2 of letting go
Since the day Jessica left me, I promised to myself that I’ll never love again. I would offer my life to god as a promise to her that my love for her would be forever!!
As I was walking along the park one night, a soft breeze suddenly rushed into me…”jess I know it’s you, watching me in everything I do…” then a voice whispered softly in my ear “Carl, im sorry if I have to leave so soon, since then, I cant bare the pain, the burden I was carrying for the past 4 years between you, my friends, and i. I felt so alone..so down..no one to talk to. I did not have the guts to tell you all of this because I was afraid that you won’t understand. But even if I had to risk my own life, I did promise one thing..that the love I have for you will never fade..and that I will love you FOREVER!!”. Then a bright light suddenly appeared infront of me. It was her, the girl I love and will be in my heart for the rest of my life. She was smiling, yet I saw in her eyes that there was something missing… the usual glow when I always look deep in her eyes was lost.. then the light suddenly faded.
It’s been 2 years now since jess died. But all my heart shouts is her name..i miss her so much! I still love her and I will love her forever! And now, knowing that she’s there waiting for me, my love for have ebdured stronger. Our memories will be kept in my mind always. I wouldn’t even consider her as my past coz she will always be my present.
“jess..i know you can hear me..this I promise you..my love will always be with you no matter what happens..and as I go to sleep tonight…I would be waking up tommorow in your eyes..we’ll be together again!!we will never part for the rest of our life!!im never letting go!!im not saying goodbye!!!”
